Sigh ...

Feelings ... stirring. The clock ticks two minutes after 1:30 a.m. as a whirlwind of thoughts swam inside my head. Experiencing a nauseating blend of contrasting emotions. Not entirely sure why. A li'll bit of frustration, a tad of restlessness, a pinch of sadness, a dollop of disappointment ... all of which can be pretty much summed up with a very heavy sigh. The tune of 'Yesterday Once More' playing in the background isn't helping. :(

I'll be leaving soon ... leaving with a very heavy heart. Bidding goodbye to the life I've very much grown most comfortable with recently. I'll be going off to a land of oil, sand and sun. I foresee myself leading a rather different kinda life there ... something that will take a whole lot of effort, patience and perseverance if I were to make it through. I tell myself that if it doesn't kill me, it'll only serve to make me stronger. If life deals you with lemons ... make lemonade but alas ... I'm not feeling any better.

It's still difficult to genuinely smile when I look into the mirror these days. Maybe it's because I've not been getting the rest my body and mind is screaming ever so loudly for. Work have been a li'll crazier than usual of late. Working at home till the wee hours in the mornings ... no prize for guessing that this is a practice I do not favour.

Missing my other half so dearly as well since she's travelling for work, thus cutting short what's left of our time together. I'm hopefull though that what we discussed might actually fall through. NOt gonna tell what's it all about ... don't wanna jinx it. Hahaha, so can only keep my fingers crossed here for the time being. At least she's coming home soon ... will be picking her up from the airport in a couple of hours more to be exact. Funny how one individual can crave for another so badly ... to be in constant need of the other's presence. Is it a good thing to be in such a silly 'predicament' ... I don't know.

Mom's in the hospital ... just under went a minor surgery. She was all ok when I visited her earlier today. Just praying for a speedy recovery. So used to seeing her being so steadfast and strong ... and yet, watching her lying down on the hospital bed ... so vulnerable ... so fragile. Never told her this before but she is the pillar of my life. Her undivided love and care had brought me this far in life ... through the many downs experienced, she was the one who always stood there by my side, ever ready to help me stand up when I fall.

Finally did my video certification for my Body Combat. Alex C and Su Yee generously offered to help me out on this. So to the both of them, please accept my sincerest ARIGATO! The members were also most supportive, they gave me the intensity, the spirit and support I needed. I wouldn't be the instructor I am today if it weren't for them. Was the shoot good ... well, time is not a luxury I can afford now, so I'm just gonna send it in and hope for the best. Hehe.

After class, the bunch of us headed to Nic's place for a scrumptious supper. On the menu were roti jala with curry chicken, spiced fried rice, angel hair with herbs, stir fried asparagus and the star of the night ... baked sole fish. Super yummilicious this one. Wonder how much would I need to offer Nic for him to part with the recipe. :p Anyways, desserts came in the form of sinful chocolate cupcakes and Alex helped with the caffeine brew. It was good fun to enjoy delish foods as well as the excellent company. I'm gonna miss this bunch of peeps when I leave. *sniff*

I guess that's all for now. Gonna try to catch 40 winks before the drive to pick up the missus. At least that's something to look forward to. :)

Pleasant dreams fellas.