The thoughts swimming in my mind

Working ... working helps. Sitting alone in the hotel apartment, the brand new spanking Xerox photocopier on my left, the empty bathroom on my right. Only the whirling tunes of the exhaust fan can be heard. Otherwise ... silence. From a distance, a speeding car screeched to a halt. No sound came after that, I guess it must that driver's lucky day.

Today had been productive. The clock tells me it's lunch time and I've gotten some work done this morning. Looking out of 5th floor window, I'm wondering what's good to eat out there. The sun ... as usual have been most unforgiving. It's a non working day today and I see clusters of people lazily throng the streets below. A li'll kid skipping joyfully as he holds on to a man's hand ... his dad's I'm assuming. So little needed to bring happiness to them innocent buggers no? :)

Had a lengthy chat with SY last night. We've decided to try our best to brave this through. Not going to be an easy journey as I've never been in a long distance relationship. Others might laugh at this, saying that it can't be that bad, that it's only for a temporary period. That I've had it better than most. Well, good for you then, you're a lot stronger than I am. Perhaps you're a much better person. The workload I can take, the pressure I can handle. The living conditions, let's just say this isn't my first time travelling for work. And I adapt sufficiently well with people or so I've been told. The luxuries I'v been blessed with back home, I can do without but to see her being miserable ... that's hard to bear. Worrying over her safety and well being all the time isn't something that's going to get any easier with time. This mental gymnastics is the only thing that's gotten me thinking if my posting here is going to see its way till the scheduled end.

Others might not understand ... they might never will for every individual is made and programmed differently. Words can be spat out cheaply. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion. I have mine too. So why are you trying to tell me how to lead my life, how things ought to be done???!!! Who put you up on a pedestal and made you KING???!!! Yes, I might find difficulties coping with certain things and almighty you may probably think all these are peanut issues ... well, perhaps you've been born a Sherlock and I was brought here a Watson. I'm ranting now ... so sue me!!!

It matters not what I think about who does what or what's your two cents worth on my issues etc. What matters more to me are the priorities in MY life. And the experiences gained especially over the last few years have taught me not to take these things for granted. Sometimes there aren't second chances and bitter regrets only serve to tarnish the chapters of our time here on God's green earth.

Work is work. The monetary factor helps. The experience will be most beneficial. I should be able to hold my own here without too much difficulties ... that I'm sure. Adaptation is part of the evolution us humans are designed for. But at what cost ... only time will tell I guess.

KNNCB!!! ... man that felt good. :)

Disclaimer : This entry does not serve to diss anyone in particular, so do not take offense *honest*. I haven't got the time really to worry about you, you and you. I've got enough on my plate to handle at the moment.