The phone went dead ... I threw it on the bed and saw it bounced twice before resting on the duvet. I stared at it ... kept staring at it hard ... willing for it to vibrate and ring. Seconds passed and my gaze remained just as intensed. Finally, I pulled my attention away from the phone and just 'blanked'. My eyes were open and yet see nothing. I can feel though ... shutting the eyes, I can sense the four bare walls around me closing in. The mind felt very confined and the air tasted choking thick ...
The blast of cold water jolted me ... I forgot to turn on the heater earlier. Damnit! I soaped myself and watched as the bubbles whirl its way into the rusting drainhole. I imagined then that inside every bubble ... would contain an emotion of mine. The stress, frustrations, anger, dissapointments ... all would be washed away into that little black hole and I never have to deal with it again ...
Standing beside the mango tree outside, a lost breeze blew by on this humid summer night. I sat down on the pavement, closed my eyes and tilted my head towards the silent heaven above ... savouring the short lived moment of comforting pleasure. The wind came and went away. I opened my eyes and saw the big yellow moon mocking me ... or at least it felt that way. Perched up there on a cloudless sky, it shone majestically while I cowered beneath the leaves of the tropical flora. I felt its arrogance and it pissed me off royally. Feeling lost and dejected, it is so easy to succumb to one's own weakness ... to let the anger eat you up from within and somehow everyone and everything around you are to be blamed. A stray kitten lay asleep nearby ... its mother a couple of feet away. I kicked an empty tin can towards the frightened strays and they ran helter skelter. I didn't feel good doing what I did. I inhaled deeply and some kind off ill feelings instantaneously boiled up inside ... I felt like screaming ... to purge out whatever it is that's enveloping me in misery but I did not. Instead, I just punched the tree and expected a few leaves to twirl its way to the ground ... just like in the movies. None did ...
The pain numbed the awful emotions for a while. Every 5 minutes, I walk to my washroom's basin and rinse my bruised hand under running cold water. That started almost an hour ago. It stings upon contact but after a while, it soothes. The wound around the knuckles burn ... and it's burning still as I'm typing this entry ...
For some phantom reason ... I feel nothing now ... no anger ... no frustration ... no stress ... and no dissapointment. Just a nagging stinging twinge on my fist. A small price to pay because physical pain I can handle ... it's the emotional turmoil that always get to me ...
At the corner of my room ... there lay a wooden study table and on that table, stood a photo frame. In that frame, there's a picture ... I'm staring at that picture and it made my heart 'smile'. I'm going to hit the sack very soon and I reckon I'm going to have a pleasant slumber tonight.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Saturday, May 16, 2009
In 25 days ...
In 25 days ... there will be no more clubbin' and huntin' for da chickas.
In 25 days ... there will be no more one on one dates with random others.
In 25 days ... I'll lose my liberty to choose.
In 25 days ... I'll be officially off the market.
In 25 days ... I'll be changing my status.
In 25 days ... I'll be signing off my bachelorhood.
In 25 days ... I'll be taking one of the biggest step in my entire life.
In 25 days ... I'll forever be a part of her and she ... a part of me.
In 25 days ... you won't find a happier man.
I'm counting down and I can't wait for day 26 till eternity b ... :D
Sunday, May 10, 2009
The one with the dead cocks ...
My management decided that our previous working hours under the scorching desert sun isn't long enough. Hence, they've decided to lenghten it to the current 10.5 hours instead. We report to work at 7:30am and leave at 6:00pm AT THE EARLIEST!!! *BOO BOOOOOOO!!!*
So with this 'jolly' new timing, I've gotta wake up obscenely early i.e. 5:00AM if I wanted to go for my morning run. That was what transpired this morning ... by 5:25AM, I'm all washed up, all stretched up and all laced up ... ready to go go go.
I paced along my usual routine and at the first lap, though the sun wasn't completely risen yet, I noticed some very vigorous fluttering action up the road ahead. As I approached said scene, it was obvious to me two roosters were in the middle of a vicious fight and on the sidelines, a hen continued pecking on the ground as if nothing out of the ordinary was going on. *sheesh ... some chicks I tell ya*.
The cocks were both erected ooops ... I meant to say the feathers on both the roosters were erected, I guess to intimidate one another into submission. They were jumping around, trying to claw the life out of each other ... in the middle of the road no less, while the hen just enjoyed the show. I mean it's not suprising to find a chick basking at the center of the limelight no? :p
Anyways, I continued on my run ... not giving that scene another thought. Coming on to my 2nd lap, as I approached that fight scene, I wondered if it was over. I was hoping there was a knockout. From afar, I could see the hen still standing motionless from where she last stood but as for the roosters ... sighhh ... it was a sight most gruesome. Both of em' were bloody and ... FLAT!!! Yes, they were ran over by a 4X4 probably. Couldn't really make out the shape of what remained on the road. Sighhh ... those two would've been better served deep fried on a platter with some ketchup ... but to end up as roadkill this way over a chick???!!! And I should think that chick would have no problems moving on ... after all, another cock is already eyeing her from across the street.
In the very wise words of a certain Mr.Marley ... No Woman No Cry.
So with this 'jolly' new timing, I've gotta wake up obscenely early i.e. 5:00AM if I wanted to go for my morning run. That was what transpired this morning ... by 5:25AM, I'm all washed up, all stretched up and all laced up ... ready to go go go.
I paced along my usual routine and at the first lap, though the sun wasn't completely risen yet, I noticed some very vigorous fluttering action up the road ahead. As I approached said scene, it was obvious to me two roosters were in the middle of a vicious fight and on the sidelines, a hen continued pecking on the ground as if nothing out of the ordinary was going on. *sheesh ... some chicks I tell ya*.
The cocks were both erected ooops ... I meant to say the feathers on both the roosters were erected, I guess to intimidate one another into submission. They were jumping around, trying to claw the life out of each other ... in the middle of the road no less, while the hen just enjoyed the show. I mean it's not suprising to find a chick basking at the center of the limelight no? :p
Anyways, I continued on my run ... not giving that scene another thought. Coming on to my 2nd lap, as I approached that fight scene, I wondered if it was over. I was hoping there was a knockout. From afar, I could see the hen still standing motionless from where she last stood but as for the roosters ... sighhh ... it was a sight most gruesome. Both of em' were bloody and ... FLAT!!! Yes, they were ran over by a 4X4 probably. Couldn't really make out the shape of what remained on the road. Sighhh ... those two would've been better served deep fried on a platter with some ketchup ... but to end up as roadkill this way over a chick???!!! And I should think that chick would have no problems moving on ... after all, another cock is already eyeing her from across the street.
In the very wise words of a certain Mr.Marley ... No Woman No Cry.
Thursday, May 7, 2009
These Li'll Moments ...
WARNING : This particular entry is dedicated to her and hence, it's filled with lots of mushy love. Read at your own risk. You have been warned!!!
She's on the way home now as I type in this entry ... though being apart, precious moments spent together throughout the past 6 days are now engraved in my mind. These memories I shall cherish ... these reminiscences shall keep me going till we meet again ... soon.
There's simply no better way than to wake up and having you there by my side. I can then take my time to gaze and appreciate the beauty that is you. It's difficult to kiss you goodbye and head off to work but I take comfort in knowing that when my time over here is over, I'll have the priviledge to experience this everyday of our lives together.
Knowing that you're there ... waiting for my return from work made me anxiously count the ticking minutes till I'm able to pack up and rush home to you. Without fail, you greeted me with the sweetest of smile ... a smile that brightens up the entire room ... a smile to wash away my fatigue and gloom.
How we share our meals together ... whether if it's enjoying a crispy chicken burger or a cup of creamy ice cream drizzled heavily with choc fudge ... everything taste delish when we're relishing it in each other's company. You delighted my tastebuds to the wonder of strawberries dipped in sweet yoghurt. YUMMMSSS.
It was so much fun dwelling over the quirky dreams you have every night. How we will talk and joke about it ... often our conversation will stray from there to topics so far away we sometimes forgot what we were initially talking about. Nevertheless, I realised I missed listening to your laughters very much and I can't wait to hear them again.
How we would watch a movie everynight ... cuddled comfortably under the duvet and enjoying the show on my 14 inch notebook monitor. Though I didn't say it but I thought it was really cute the way you refused to watch the horror movie with the lights turned off. Also how you were showing off being able to see through the darkened room and I pretended that I couldn't.
I love cooking for you ... it's one of the many ways I hope to pamper you. Food always taste better when you have a li'll bit of sugar, a dash of salt and a whole load of TLC. :)
When you lied down and slept on my lap throughout our journey to the airport, I took the pleasure to look and tried to memorize every single detail of your face ... the strands of your hair, the contour of your nose, the shape of your eyebrows, the blush of your cheeks, the fullness of your lips ...
When I came home ... I walked into an empty room ... no smiles to welcome me, no tight hugs, no tender kisses. I miss you already b. Like I said earlier, I'll use our memories to keep me going till I return home to you. I'll be counting down the days and looking forward to having you in my arms once more.
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Please Sir, Can I ... Can I ... Have Somemore???
On the way to pick her up from Dubai Int., I had a monsterous BK King Chicken Fillet at approx. 2:00 am.
Our meals together ... we started of with La Brioche. A sweet almond croissant to work out the appetite (not that we needed any help anyways ... we were utterly famished). I had the omelette breakkie set and she relished the white truffle oil pasta.
Next up, dinner came in the form of the self acclaimed 'World's Best Hamburgers' @ Fuddruckers. We polished off the appetizer plate and this served us with fried chicken fingers, buffalo wings, onion rings, fried mozzarelas (Ooo La La ... me like!!!) and honey mustard dipping sauce. We also had the 1/3 lb. Swiss Mushroom Burger and a side ceasar salad.
Since SY already started craving for Chinese after just two days of being here in AD, we opted for Noodle House at Al Wahda Mall. The seafood tom yam soup was so spicy that beads of sweat formed on my third spoonful. *YIKES* We also ordered the Singaporean Black Peppered Beef which went along very well with the seafood fried rice + satay as well as the egg fried rice. Beverages were fusion iced teas ... most refreshing. :D
Last night, we went to The One Restaurant. The Thai Spiced Chicken Soup was yummilicious and complimented the club sandwich fantastically. SY had the feta chicken with spinach and that was also delish. The Illy's filtered coffee made up for the absence of dessert cause ... well ... we over stuffed ourselves ... as usual. :P SY went for the healthy option of the Trio Melon Juice which was a blend of watermelon, honey dew and cantaloup.
Hmmm .. I wonder what shall we have for dinner tonight? Maybe we'll go for Zyng ... the new Asian grill restaurant at Marina Mall. :)
P.S. What a crappy entry huh ... hehe. Sorry peeps.
Our meals together ... we started of with La Brioche. A sweet almond croissant to work out the appetite (not that we needed any help anyways ... we were utterly famished). I had the omelette breakkie set and she relished the white truffle oil pasta.
Next up, dinner came in the form of the self acclaimed 'World's Best Hamburgers' @ Fuddruckers. We polished off the appetizer plate and this served us with fried chicken fingers, buffalo wings, onion rings, fried mozzarelas (Ooo La La ... me like!!!) and honey mustard dipping sauce. We also had the 1/3 lb. Swiss Mushroom Burger and a side ceasar salad.
Since SY already started craving for Chinese after just two days of being here in AD, we opted for Noodle House at Al Wahda Mall. The seafood tom yam soup was so spicy that beads of sweat formed on my third spoonful. *YIKES* We also ordered the Singaporean Black Peppered Beef which went along very well with the seafood fried rice + satay as well as the egg fried rice. Beverages were fusion iced teas ... most refreshing. :D
Last night, we went to The One Restaurant. The Thai Spiced Chicken Soup was yummilicious and complimented the club sandwich fantastically. SY had the feta chicken with spinach and that was also delish. The Illy's filtered coffee made up for the absence of dessert cause ... well ... we over stuffed ourselves ... as usual. :P SY went for the healthy option of the Trio Melon Juice which was a blend of watermelon, honey dew and cantaloup.
Hmmm .. I wonder what shall we have for dinner tonight? Maybe we'll go for Zyng ... the new Asian grill restaurant at Marina Mall. :)
P.S. What a crappy entry huh ... hehe. Sorry peeps.
Saturday, May 2, 2009
You Say It Best When You Say Nothing At All
Today, democracy, independence and sovereignty are so widely preached by most but it is really unfortunate that it is in fact practiced by so few. For instance, others sermonize on the freedom of speech but at the same time, they are the very same ones that are hypocritically pressuring the little people to adhere by one golden rule ... silence is golden.
It is not alright to weasel into one’s personal space and seek to impose your laws ... to trespass into my sanctuary and rule it with your iron fist. This I do not take lightly. I write, speak and blog what I deem appropriate ... what I interpret is the truth. May I conclude that some are not equipped sufficiently to handle the truth especially if it works against their own well being??? Haha ... I personally relish bruising the ego of those trying to wear shoes too big for their feet to fit in. Boo Hoo to you.
However, as with any other human being, I am flawed. I commit mistakes and experience moments of weakness. BUT then again, who doesn’t???!!! ‘HE WHO HAS NOT SIN SHALL CAST THE FIRST STONE’. I do not appreciate you coming to me with a ‘holier than thou’ attitude ... simply because you are not. Are you trying to kill the messenger so that you can all live in a pretend world that ignorance is bliss???!!! Well, perhaps it’s time to wake up and face the bitter reality. I guess it’s true that ‘to grow old is not an option, but to grow up ... is’.
I channel my thoughts, ideas and visions through this blog for instance. It is my medium to release stress and frustrations, to share with those around me my experiences of joy and delight. This is my little nook where I can be myself and speak my mind. This is where I do not need to put up with the façade where you smile like a snake in my face but sharpening your fangs to strike the minute I turn around.
All that being said, I would like to humbly suggest a solution of sorts for you and I. It’s fairly simple really ... you don’t like what you see, read or hear??? ... then just don’t. Now bugger off ... get lost ... SHOOOH! :p
It is not alright to weasel into one’s personal space and seek to impose your laws ... to trespass into my sanctuary and rule it with your iron fist. This I do not take lightly. I write, speak and blog what I deem appropriate ... what I interpret is the truth. May I conclude that some are not equipped sufficiently to handle the truth especially if it works against their own well being??? Haha ... I personally relish bruising the ego of those trying to wear shoes too big for their feet to fit in. Boo Hoo to you.
However, as with any other human being, I am flawed. I commit mistakes and experience moments of weakness. BUT then again, who doesn’t???!!! ‘HE WHO HAS NOT SIN SHALL CAST THE FIRST STONE’. I do not appreciate you coming to me with a ‘holier than thou’ attitude ... simply because you are not. Are you trying to kill the messenger so that you can all live in a pretend world that ignorance is bliss???!!! Well, perhaps it’s time to wake up and face the bitter reality. I guess it’s true that ‘to grow old is not an option, but to grow up ... is’.
I channel my thoughts, ideas and visions through this blog for instance. It is my medium to release stress and frustrations, to share with those around me my experiences of joy and delight. This is my little nook where I can be myself and speak my mind. This is where I do not need to put up with the façade where you smile like a snake in my face but sharpening your fangs to strike the minute I turn around.
All that being said, I would like to humbly suggest a solution of sorts for you and I. It’s fairly simple really ... you don’t like what you see, read or hear??? ... then just don’t. Now bugger off ... get lost ... SHOOOH! :p
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